Santorini Sunset

The last few weeks have all gone by in a bit of a blur. There has been summer trips to Italy and Greece, Glastonbury, family and friends visiting from New Zealand, sightseeing, rugby world cup games, time on the yoga mat, a recent wedding in Denmark and the ultimate, GQ Men of the Year awards. There’s no questioning why I love living in London, but here am I am asking myself “To stay, or not to stay?”

In the back of my mind though, there has been a constant debate about whether to stay in this city that has stolen my heart, or return back to New Zealand. If it were only my decision, the choice would have been easier.

Unfortunately it’s not always so simple and there were a lot of other factors to consider – the main one being that Mike was ready to return home. The initial one to two year plan of moving to London has already turned into 3.5 years. London seems to have a way of doing that. The months and years whizz by. There is always something new to do, to see, to learn and experience.

It has a magical hold with its bustling streets, history, international cultures, pop-ups, food markets, theatre, gigs, entertainment, shopping and travel. If you can think of it, you can probably find it in London.

Reaching this fork in the road of one of us wanting to stay and the other wanting to leave meant there has been a lot of umming and aahing this year when it came to making a decision. The fast approaching deadline of our visas expiring only adding to the pressure.

To be honest, I’ve been in complete denial. Pulling back from my blog, from social media and putting my head in the sand, hoping that time would stand still and I wouldn’t have to make a decision, or leave the city I love.

FYI – this is not the recommended way to deal with things. Time will never stop and by not making any decision, I put life on hold inevitably not making progress either way. Sometimes fear holds us exactly where we are, in turn creating what we are most afraid of.

Time was running out and it was time to make a choice.

A lot of people gave their advice (a lot of it biased on both sides – love you all), but comments from two people really stuck with me and I think can apply to others in many situations.

The first from an unexpected source who told me, “It’s time to move forward. If you make no decision, it will keep you stuck and static. Don’t wait until a decision feels right. Just move. Only once we’ve moved forward will we know if it’s a mistake and if it is, we can change it.”

The other from a close friend, “Just make a decision and see how it feels. There’s no wrong decision. There’s just a decision and if you don’t like what you decide, you can make a new decision. That’s how we learn and grow. That’s life. A beautiful mess. Either way, make the decision from a place of power and love, not a place of powerlessness and fear.”

Both pieces of advice really helped me move forward, so, recently I handed in my resignation at work.

And then cried.

While there are plenty of positives of moving back to New Zealand, I’m still sad to be leaving a company I love, a city that fills me with excitement and to say goodbye to beautiful friends I’ll be leaving behind.

But, as the sun sets on one day, a new day begins and I am excited about what is next. While London and all the wonderful memories, experiences and friends I have made here will always have a special place in my heart, there are new adventures to be had.

So, London friends – it’s time to schedule catch ups and after a holiday in Bali, New Zealand friends and family – we will see you in a few weeks.

Love & London,

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  • Good luck! Sad you’re leaving London!

    Always got to look to the future and plan lots of exciting things ie travel 😀

  • Kimberley

    Absolute best of luck!

  • Liv SB

    Love the tidbits of advice you were given. They were awesome. Despite your sadness at leaving London it’s so flippen exciting that we’ll be having you home soon.

  • AAAh lovely lady! (i feel your pain!) But yes – the london door is never closed for good! New exciting adventures await! xx

  • Good luck with everything in the future lovely and it was great to meet you.

  • Curiouser and curiouser

    Hey, I don’t know you personally but have followed your blog, it was recommended by a friend. I thought this quote might provide some reassurance…
    “One day Alice came to a fork in the road and saw a Cheshire cat in a tree. Which road do I take? she asked. Where do you want to go? was his response. I don’t know, Alice answered. Then, said the cat, it doesn’t matter.”
    I’m sure the future, if anything like the past, will be fantastic and full of opportunity.

    • Thank you very much for reading and for your comment. Love that quote, it made me smile. SPOT on! Thanks for sharing.

  • I’m sad to see you go, but happy that you’ve made a decision that you feel good about! Best wishes for the future!

    • Thank you Julie. I’m definitely going to miss London a lot! You will just have to make sure you come visit in New Zealand. Hopefully will see you at the the next Traverse Mingle before I leave? x

  • Sounds like you’ve had a tough time, but like you mention in your post – there is no wrong decision and at least now you’ve made one and can move forward. Sending you lots of luck and happiness for the big move. <3 xx

    • Thanks Char! Wishing you lots of luck with your next chapter too with your soon to arrive mini adventurer x

  • Will be sad to see you go Nicole but I think the move and starting a new chapter together will be exciting. Just make sure you plan lots of trips back to see us! xx

    • Thanks Ayla. Going to miss the fabulous blogging community and all you girls. Will make sure to come back to Europe. My itchy feet will still want adventure x

  • Good luck with your new chapter lovely – cheers to many new exciting adventures!

    • Thanks Emma! I really appreciate your message. Will have to make sure we catch up before I go now that I have emerged from having my head in the sand 🙂